Locked

I am in a locked state. The key isn't lost, but I don't know where to find. In time my mental will be back to where it was. Time and music, I will regain.

I am content with my life. I know that some things take time, and I have no problem waiting. I hate to rush and be rush. I am thinking generally about people these days. How some people what everything their way, no questions asked about the other person consideration. That is a nasty way to be.

I am still living by my goal for life: to have a simple life that I am pleased with. At the end of the day, I have to make sure I am happy. Even if I have my problems, it is mines to carry alone. Probably why I locked down my expression for so long. To a point that I can not even recall my original reason for my locked state.

Linking from a past thought

From my last post, I am still at a stand-still. Literally, I kept my thoughts within me, let it cloud my thoughts when I am alone. I did not want to express myself nor did I try. I punish myself for some reason, I don't know.

However, as much I did not want to express myself, I have been listening to music constantly.

Much have not changed, at least that is what I think.

I liked a guy named J.

It have a guy name G that likes me very much.

I am still working.

Hoping soon to enrolled in school again.

Here and Present

Well, at least somewhat present. I am on auto-pilot for some months now. Maybe even close to a year. I am in cloud presently, trying to understand what is life. The reasons for the ups and the downs. The reasons for lost of close friends. Just to understand and make peace with my thoughts. I am being haunted by thoughts that would not leave me.